No Refunds

Posted October 3, 2014

by Diane Keeney

dianeOn May 29th, I sent a panicked e-mail to Lisa Benner, one of the lovely Hathavidya instructors and teacher training instructors at Bread and Yoga. Earlier that month I had signed up (and dropped a sizable deposit) for the early bird teacher training special. My thought: “A 200 hour yoga teacher training program? Why not?! I love yoga! And I love early bird specials!” Less than 30 days later, I felt like my life was falling apart: my live-in partner and I had split, I had a bed bug scare, and my money and sanity funds were at an all time low.

I promptly e-mailed Lisa and unloaded all my problems on her because that’s what I do. By the conclusion of that e-mail, I told her that I couldn’t be a yoga teacher at this point in time and I needed my money back.

A few days later (Lisa, God bless her, does not check her e-mail every hour of every day like the rest of the world), I received her reply: “Your deposit is non-refundable.” She also said a bunch of sympathetic things that I don’t remember, but it was clear to me that she was not going to indulge my pity party. And it suddenly became clear to me that I shouldn’t either.

There’s never a “good time” to commit to your yoga practice. And when I say yoga practice, I mean practicing self-awareness, universal awareness, and God (highest intelligence) awareness. As I have come to learn in the first very vigorous, very vital two weeks of teacher training, yoga isn’t a bunch of sun salutations and “farting rainbows” (Will Duprey’s words). I knew that when I signed up, but I didn’t realize it until I actually showed up.

I almost didn’t show up because I was afraid I wasn’t ready: financially, emotionally, physically. I’m going to let you in on a secret: I’m still not ready. I’ll never be ready. I have no idea what’s going to happen over the next 6 weeks, and I’m not entirely sure what’s happened over the past two weeks. But there are no refunds for experience, and I’m committed to be where I am and continue as I go. Namaste!


Welcome to our Teacher Trainee blog! Over the course of the coming weeks, each of our teacher trainees will write a post sharing their experiences throughout the Hathavidya 200 Hour Teacher Training program. Thank you to all of our trainees for sharing with your community! Look forward to new posts each week!


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New York, NY 10034