by Laura Salcedo
During the last couple of months in teacher training I’ve learned to listen to my body and my emotions. Paying attention more in detail to what is going on inside. Being patient with myself. I push myself too hard sometimes and judge myself too much. In the past I’ve kept pushing through the pain resulting in injuring myself. My knees, my back, my hip; but now I’ve learned to listen to my body and take my time.
Observing myself after my Sadhana is difficult for me. I think to myself what am I observing? What do I feel? What do I write? I don’t know. I do my best. But as I go through out my day I listen to myself. I’ve observed new things. The way I react towards certain situations and that I am able to understand why I feel a certain way. I no longer have just one word for a certain feeling. I am able to look deeper inside myself and see what’s really going on.
Judging myself and comparing myself to others is probably what I’ve done most in life and the reason I put myself down. I’m slowly learning to accept myself for who I am and love myself as I am. I am me, I am unique, and there is no one else like me and no one else can love me more than I love myself.
I decided to take teacher training to learn more about yoga and to learn more about myself. Both have occured in the last couple of months. I’ve learned so much about myself by just listening and I am so grateful for that.