by Bekki Doster
I’ve wanted to take yoga teacher training for years now, ever since I first learned what it was really about, or at least what I thought it was really about. A way to develop a personal practice, a journey into self-discovery, an education on the finer points of yoga as a lifestyle, and yes, how to actually teach a yoga class. It sounded great, of course this was something I wanted to do. Then all the doubts would start to settle in. I don’t do enough yoga to be doing teacher training. I’m not even good at yoga, definitely not Instagram worthy. Aren’t all yoga teachers required to have an Instagram pic of themselves in dancer pose on a far-flung beach somewhere? I can’t even do that pose without falling on my face. I’m clearly not yoga teacher training material. Maybe someday but not today.
Then I found this program and I knew it was the one I wanted, the one I needed. I went back and forth with myself for a month. I want to do this training but work is crazy right now. I want to do this training but it’s in the middle of the Brooklyn Half training. I want to do this training but it’s expensive. I want to do this training but I still can’t do dancer pose. There were a hundred and one reasons why I shouldn’t do this training right now but every time one of these excuses came up I would think, but if not now, then when? Eventually I came to realize it was never going to be the right time. I was never going to feel prepared enough, hell, I was probably never even going to be able to do dancer pose but this was something I knew I wanted so I decided I had to make my own right time.
We all have different paths in life and we all have to make our own way, in our own time; but the next time you convince yourself you shouldn’t do something you want because you’re not ready or the timing isn’t right maybe stop and ask yourself, if not now, then when?