by KT Fanelli
It’s so easy to forget how quickly life can move. One second you’re stuck, lost, unsure of who you are and where you’re headed, the next your following a dharma you never knew you had. That’s what these last 6 months have felt like to me.
At the start of this training I was only just beginning to figure out who I am. Life had made a complete 180 and I was beginning to pick up the pieces. Now I’ve got the super glue in one hand and my dharma in the other, and I’m finally beginning to see a clear picture. 6 months ago I was at the start of picking up my yoga practice after setting it aside for years. I couldn’t bend over and touch my toes, yet I was going into a teaching program? I felt so little and insignificant. Could I even do this? Was I good enough? I was so full of doubt and fear. I was standing in my own way.
As I began to learn more about the practice and what it truly meant, the little voice in the back of my head telling me I wasn’t good enough began to get quieter and quieter. A louder voice began to take over that was telling me, “I am enough.” This became my mantra.
I am enough.
I am enough for myself.
I am enough for my practice.
I am enough to be fully happy, present, and content.
I am, simply, enough.
I began to speak to myself the way I speak to those around me, the people I love. I put more kind words and thoughts about myself first, and began to truly love who I am, flaws and all.
Here I am at the end of my training an entirely new and evolved person than I was a year ago. Yes, I’m still flawed and still evolving, but I am more sure of who I am and the path I’m on. There’s still so much that lies ahead that is cloudy, and unsure. But instead of fear and anxiety, I’m filled with love and excitement. Because at the end of it all I can look back and say to myself, “I am enough,” and truly believe it and live it.
I want to thank Shawna, who, without her, I wouldn’t be on this amazing journey of self discovery. I also want to thank Zanny, Lidnsey, Serena, Ethan, Laura, Meghan, Caprice, and Talya, for being the most amazing support and postive group of people to go on this journey with. To Lisa, Meghan, Will, Joseph, and Nick for guiding us. Namaste.